You've seen it all. Well, most of it.
You watched me fall in love, and get married. You watched for nine months while two beautiful boys grew in my belly, and you were even there to see them just minutes after they were born.
I uploaded pictures as they made their way into this world and over 200 of you clicked "like" as you celebrated with me in the new lives I created.
You were there (probably more than you would have liked) any time my kids did anything even remotely cute.
You have all gone through the best moments of my life with me and I was honored to share them with you and even more honored when you shared all your happy times with me.
I didn't lie. Every smile I ever shared was real.
But here is what you missed because I feared your judgement.
You missed the pain I endured the day I found out my son was autistic. I didn't know how to tell you, so I glorified it with some sappy statement about how God made him perfect, which is undoubtedly true; but I struggled for months while I learned how to cope with learning a new way of living and caring for my sweet baby boy.
You missed the first time he asked me why the kids at the park won't play with him, and how I waited till I was alone before I started to cry.
You missed me when I was grumpy. Gosh, I'm so grumpy sometimes. The house is messy, the kids somehow always want to be playing with the same exact toy, why - I will never know, and I can never seem to get caught up on my sleep.
You missed my marriage problems. You saw us at our best. I showed you how fierce our love could be, but you never saw me the nights we chose anger over Jesus.
It is not every single persons business everything we struggle with. But because we all share all our happiest moments, it paints an illusion that only some are struggling.
And when those do post about their hardships, most people go on to say, "Why does she talk about her problems so much?"
Well my friends, because she's not pretending. She's in a very hard season of her life. Shame on you for making anyone feel like you only want to see the parts of their lives that shine.
Social media is great, but you only see what people choose to show you. People spend hours a day finding the perfect caption with the perfect filter and a meaningless hashtag and for what?
I'm not trying to take away from the good times, they are real and they are cherished. I whole heartily love watching your children grow, encouraging you through your weight loss journey, and laughing with you at a viral cat video. But that's all we see.
To spend as much time as we spend on our phones, to be ignoring the people right in front of us, to only see half the story seems - a bit odd.
Maybe you don't think you fall into this category, fine. Deactivate your social media for one month. See how much more time you have to do the chores you claim you can't get done, see how much more attentive you are to your family members, see how beautiful the sky really is without first looking down at your phone.
Maybe to you, the negative repercussions of how addicting social media can be aren't as big a deal to you as sharing your life's best moments. Maybe you enjoy being in contact with literally every human you've met all throughout the day.
Take it up with the child who doesn't have their parents anymore because they got hit and killed while some dip stick ran a red light while scrolling down their news feed.
It's a problem for a lot of people. Social media is a blessing in so many ways, but only when we see it for what it is, and use it right. Picking up your phone every five minutes to see how many "likes" you got on an Instagram picture is not normal.
I'm just saying, it's OK to leave your phone in the car while you go on a date with your spouse; it's OK to leave your phone at home while you are at the park so you can be fully engaged with your kids. You have enough pictures already.
It's OK to turn it off (yes, turn it off) and have family dinner; it's OK to just hang out with the people you are in the same room with, without sharing with everyone else what you guys are having to drink.
It's also OK to get on social media, be real and not feel like everyone will think differently of you because you were vulnerable with your struggles.
I for one, will pray for you and encourage you through your hard days, every time.