Our youngest son has been fighting a virus this past week. It has meant several nights of being up with a very uncomfortable and distressed crying toddler.
My husband and I would take turns trying to figure out how to comfort our little one and allow each other to at least get a little rest.
One night after several attempts at trying to get my little guy to go back to sleep, I picked him up and we both headed to the La-Z-Boy chair in the living room.
As we shared the chair, wrapped in our fleece blanket and rocking back and forth, he started to calm down. He finally put his little head on my chest and fell fast asleep.
What a relief this tired mom felt, as he slept peacefully on my chest.
Up until this point I had found myself getting upset and I was starting to feel a little helpless. Sitting in the dark I felt God speak to my weary heart and mind.
It seems like some of my best reflective moments are actually when I am up through the night. Maybe God knows this is when I am most willing to listen?
I had nowhere else to go or anything else to do, but to sit and listen.
One of the things that kept coming to my mind was, “Love is patient, love is kind...love never fails.”
As I held my sons little body, I was reminded of how he relied so much on me.
When he was screaming, that was the very moment I needed to be patient, kind and continue loving him – my son needed and trusted me.
As I sat breathing in the calm after the storm, I had a powerful moment of realization. Just like my son needed and trusted me, I needed to trust my Heavenly Father.
I needed to remember for myself that love is patient, love is kind and most importantly that it never fails.
I find that I can be my own harshest critic and at times I am not able to receive that kind of love.
I get so tied up on the things I am personally struggling with or that are causing me or my family difficulty.
This can often lead to me losing sight that love is patient, kind and that it never fails.
It also makes it much harder for me to extend that kind of love to others, especially if I am not willing to receive it for myself.
This quiet time alone with God in the middle of the night help me remember that there are times for us as adults that we may need to just sit with our Heavenly Father, rest our heads on His chest and rest peacefully and securely in His kind, patient and never failing love.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres...Love never fails. 1 Cor. 13:4-8