Have you ever experienced something that has left you feeling completely alone and lost and just absolutely hopeless?
This is my life – monthly, weekly, and sometimes even daily.
I am diagnosed with depressive bipolar.
It will never go away. This is who I am.
What can and is possible to change is the severity of how I feel every day. I'm so thankful that I have the knowledge and wisdom to know that the only one that can make a difference is God.
God has worked in my life in so many ways. I belong to an amazing church that I feel comfortable in and I look forward to going to every single weekend.
Through that church I have met many people -- some who have touched my life in small and big ways.
I have found a small group that I have been a part of now for almost two years and within that group, I now have several close friends that have literally helped miracles to happen in my life.
You see God is in fact this all-knowing-powerful Father that we have, but He doesn't just zip himself down to earth every time we are in need of a miracle or immediate help.
He has so many people that He works through to do a beautiful work in us. Through some of my darkest times, it has been a work of God through others that has brought me to a point of clarity so I can see that He is real, He is present, and He is with me always – and sometimes I need the help of others to see that.
Sometimes it can be simple and sometimes profound.
A few days ago I was struggling in a big way, that hopeless feeling was dragging me down and I somehow managed to say a small prayer for myself. I prayed that the fog could be lifted, that I could be of a sound mind just as it states in 2 Timothy 1:7 which happens to be one of my favorite Scriptures.
Just a short twenty minutes later, I got in the car and turned on the radio and my favorite song was just starting, the mash up of the 2014 K-Love Fan awards songs of the year by Anthem Lights.
Every single word spoke so clearly and directly to my heart and that it raised the hairs on my arms and made my heart beat faster.
I knew without a doubt in my mind that God was speaking to me.
The conclusion to all of this is that I struggle with an awful disease and without God I don't know if I would even be alive today.
But with Him, I have good days, sometimes I have great days, and when I am having a really bad day, I usually have His angels on earth to remind me of his love for me.
When I put my focus on that, everything becomes clearer and it is easier to get through every day.
So whatever you’re fighting, whatever is eating at you daily, try God, He is the best medicine to cure whatever ails you.
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Tim. 1:7